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One more time, doubt.
About you, your voice and the promise you made to yourself so long ago after the world you believed was true collapsed loudly. Then, fresh from the position you held for years in a transnational corporation, the decision to fly alone (to achieve your dream of finally daring yourself to be yourself) seemed like the best option.
Despite what they told you that day You lost your jobThey knew each other capable and talented. Scared but sure, you threw yourself into the abyss of ship. You plunged into these seemingly calm waters and found that several meters deep there were strong currents and eddies that were pulling you away from the direction you wanted to go.
Down there, strange forces you didn’t know opposed the old rules of the Corporate world. Various monsters were chasing you and approaching you to intimidate you and force you to step back: clients more complex than any boss you’ve ever had, payments put on hold for months, projects only supported by an uncertain economic one Environment were overshadowed. Proposals worked, quoted and presented that from one day to the next they were turned into unfulfilled desires, projects that would never take place.
And on top of that, the voice was in you.
Intense, menacing and constant: a chant that reverberated in your skull and repeated the same thing over and over again. It was the voice of doubt that was intensified when an obstacle appeared in your path; The greatest challenge in the world of creators, artists and dreamers. Even with entrepreneurs.
THE LITTLE GANDALLA THAT YOU CARRY INSIDE
Long time Nick CaveThe Australian singer and writer was asked about his own doubts about his own talent on his personal blog, The Red Hand Files. After making it clear that this was one of the most frequently asked questions (dark, poetic and twisted, Nick Cave’s style of music is definitely not for everyone), he started talking about this voice that most of us hear when performing. The first complications.
A criticism, comment, or lack of Likes They are enough for the voice of the little gandal that lives within us to reinforce and break down the trust in ourselves that we have built over time and with a lot of work. According to Cave, this Gandal is a homunculus (a little man) who repeats the same thing over and over. Sometimes he screams it, sometimes he whispers it. Sometimes he keeps saying it as we try to fall asleep, “Leave it alone, you are not and will never be good enough.”
The annoying chant of that terrible voice is followed by the natural reaction of doubt. When we hear it, we withdraw and flee wounded into the depths of us. Terrified, we seek solace in the loneliness of our complicated labyrinth and knowing that we are absolutely vulnerable, we hide at least until there is silence in our skull and the echo of his words has disappeared.
The problem is that the only way to silence him completely is to abandon our ideal. The idea of writing a song, making a film, painting a picture that could bring a heart turned to stone back to life. The only way to permanently silence the voice of doubt is to forego the idea of doing this project that is so close to our hearts.
In his little text, Nick Cave explains that this voice is the real enemy of striving. A cruel order that commands us to distance ourselves from a possibly better version of ourselves. Without realizing it, many of us fall for our game and fearfully give up.
The most dramatic – warns Cave – is that this annoying voice is really our inner voice. Each of us is our own homunculus, our own Gandal, our own critic. It’s not necessary for don’t like come from outside. We are constantly judging ourselves, we are disqualifying ourselves, we are mocking our efforts. We deny our little successes and have managed to fall apart without the help of others.
We’ll lose the fight before we’ve fought it.
For Nick Cave, the beginning of his work (a song, a novel, a company) is a declaration of war. A bloody fight between your true self and the Gandal screaming from within. But this ruthless fight is absolutely necessary. The true power of creation arises from this tension between the two beings.
If you allow your homunculus to win the battle when you surrender to bitter self-criticism, you run the risk of existing defeated, frustrated, and eternally punishing yourself don’t like like a little tyrant. But if you believe in yourself, if you have the courage to fight the dark echoes of doubt that you create, sooner or later you will find that you have created something unique, beautiful and valuable in the process.
Nick Cave closes his text by reminding us that it is our and no other responsibility to kick the little Gandal inside of us as often as necessary to silence him.
Next time in doubt, you know what to do.